I had not intended to be writing about this subject until this morning. I guess that’s the beauty of a Blog. I want to tell you about how God’s Word saved me today, just 10 minutes ago. It all started yesterday at the Canadian Tire store. I needed a liter of transmission oil but was shocked at the price of over 18 dollars per liter. I decided to shop around and after a few stores found what I was looking for at under 13 dollars. This was at a store I usually avoided because of high prices if your not a member. Against my better judgement I headed back to Canadian Tire to ask their manager why it was so much more expensive at their store. By this time I was truly planning a confrontation with the manager rather than asking him anything. I was visualizing how much milk I could get now that I shopped around or a box of cereal, a loaf of bread, good for about four breakfasts. I began to fume.
To say the least I proceeded in a manner far from how God would want me to. Although I did save some grocery money it cost me far more in self frustration, anger, loss of sleep, and above all…the self dissapointment I felt before God. Through meditation over His Word, a cup of coffee, and some morning herb I had calmed down enough to begin praying. I felt so ashamed of my willing disregard for God’s Word yesterday. I hadn’t forgot it, I had chose to ignore it, to proceed in the way I have learned to proceed most of my life, Godlessly. Using my mind only, I delivered a heartless message, one I myself would not have wanted to be on the receiving end of. I had not come even close to loving my neighbor as myself.
In prayer I did not pray for His forgiveness, I thanked Him for it. The Bible tells us through Jesus’ sacrifice our past, present, and even our future sins have been forgiven by God because of His sacrifice. It is times like this that the gravity of that becomes so real. If it were not for this forgiveness I would be hopeless. His forgiveness sets the stage for me to be able to stumble and yet get up, to sin yet know He has already forgiven me. Even though I know He saw my every move and thought, I don’t cower in shame but feel His forgiveness, drawing me to Him, comforting me. The thought makes me want to try again, to try to remember His Word and follow it next time, swallowing my childish pride and humbling me enough that I can learn and try again. I am after all, a child; thankfully of God.
I have no idea how a person could possibly fake or even imagine the feeling of being forgiven by God without a strong healthy faith in His Word. The kind of faith I now possess. The kind we all have in our parents, best friends, siblings or all the processes, sciences, music etc.etc. The kind I did not have in God for 66 yrs. but now do. I realized it took tremendous faith to drive a vehicle with all it’s inherent risks, and remain calm, in full control, and confident. I realized I did not have that kind of faith in God’s Word, not even close, but I sure wanted it.
The kind of faith I am trying to describe started in the same way the faith I have in everything started. Like the first time I knew I could ride my bike, that transition from hope to knowledge; the beginning of trust, understanding and knowledge of riding a bike. In the same way, I took that leap from hope to knowledge; the beginning of trust, understanding and knowledge of the Word of God.
It was from this humble start that my trust grew into faith. The kind that saved me once again this morning.
KU is dedicated to helping others begin riding the Word of God, to experience for yourself that transition from hoping to knowing; the beginning of your trust, knowledge and understanding of the Word of God. Your bicycle took you everywhere your faith would allow, so too can the Word of God.
KU
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