Reasonings

Reasonings

Chapter 1

In my blog I will be trying to wean myself off of spell checkers and grammar correctors.  God completely influences me and my writing so, if you see a spelling or a grammar mistake it will not actually be a mistake but one of those beautiful little features of God’s influence.  God’s Word is the gold standard.  So, there will be no mistakes, only features.  This may seem unusual but so is the KOOTENAY UNCHURCH (KU).

I have found it so difficult to try organizing 73 years of life data on how I came to faith in His Word.  I, being of sound yet stubourn mind took 66 years just to get to where I began trusting it and even then, it was one step at a time.  I was used to darkness, the light was shocking, overwhelming,…tantalizing.  My first glimse was the very first time I trusted His Word.  That day is the second most incredible day of my life.  The most incredible day came about 18 months later, the moment I fully believed the Word of God.  At that moment I received the promised Holy Spirit within myself. It took less time than it took me to take one step down off my porch but it changed my life for ever.  The event left me with a mental image of a war zone littered with piles of smoking debrie and ruin.  I knew this represented all of my failed attempts at finding God.  In the middle of this scene was a row of trees that had fallen in toward the ruins.  The trees separated  the other side of this scene which was about as distinct as a snow storm in a fog bank.  It looked completely blank.  It took a lot of thinking over time for me to finally realize it was blank because I was brand new, no history yet, I had just been born!  Just had the best day of my life!

This would have been a great place to ride off into the sunset to live happily ever after but, that was not God’s plan, it was mine.  His was quite different.  After about six weeks of being awash in God’s love I began recognizing old characteristics popping up from time time.  They were disturbing at first, but things worsened in a hurry.  My old self seemed to be comming back into my life.  I dug my heels in and refused to acknowledge it but hopelessly desended from the most high of my life to what would soon be the absolute lowest, the bottom.  I was alone once more; just me, without God.

Why had I lost Him?  I loathed myself, and with unbearable pain, Him too.  After about six months on the pitty pot my anger had beaten the stink right out of me.  I was weak and left only with the longing to be back with Him, to fall in love with Him once again.

In my longing I reminisced about my skyrocketing ascent to Him, a whirlwind of love and passion like never before, how could I get back?  I set my mind to figure out how I did it before and to get back there, in love with my God.  It became all I could think of.

The KU will present my epic journey to faith in God and His Word.  Covering 66 years of life that built a mountain of doubt and how faith the size of a mustard seed grew in me, moving  that mountain from between God and me to behind me until the day I believed, when I was born a child of God.  From this most high place I fell flat on my spiritual face, wollowed in pity for six months, emmerged weak but hopeful I could get back once again.

The journey is more than just the travels along the way.  KU hopes to present a path of familiar travel all will recognize as their own, but show the spiritual view opposed to the secular one we all plod along with.   This view is locked inside of all of us, written by God on the tablets of our heart.  KU teaches how to send your mind searching through these tablets for God’s viewpoint.  Since His viewpoint comes from within, you know you can trust it.  It’s the beginning of trust in the Word of God.  From trust springs knowledge, understanding, and faith in His Word.

I mentioned early on about how difficult it is to organize 73 years of data and present it in an orderly fashion.  It was too difficult, so I have given the reins to God.  All presentations will be in perfect chronological order, written in plain English, designed to be the most trustworthy and faith building, and all arranged by the Word of God.  I will be doing the writing only.